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You know what I like? Epiphanies. That one moment when the lightbulb flicks on in your head and all of a sudden you start making all these connections that seem so obvious now but were hiding before. When you finally start feeling like you're closer to figuring it all out. There aren't many feelings better than that. The past is old news. You can't go back and relive it. There's nothing you can do about it now except think about it, learn from it, replay it as much as you need to until you're satisfied. After all, everything that happened back then affects you right now to some degree. Good or bad, life-changing or insignificant, it's all a part of you. so when you finally sit down and think, think back, think back and really dig through the past to figure out the reason why you decided to find a shell to take cover in, decided to hide from the world under baggy clothes and big hooded sweatshirts and long hair in your face, decided to keep your thoughts and emot
In less than a week, I will be a senior in college. Weird. I have grown up. I've been an adult on paper for almost three years now, but now I'm starting to feel like one. It's been a tough ride getting here, and there are certainly times in my life that I would much rather not relive. But if I were given the choice, I wouldn't do anything different. I wouldn't change any aspect of the past 21 years for anything in the world. It's the people, places, and events in my life that have shaped me to this point. I am who I am today because of where I have been, for better and for worse--I like to hope the better outweighs the worse. And to the person who told me today that she was sorry she didn't do more to help me through the tougher parts--I want you to know that no one could have done it better than you did. You kept me grounded when I could have easily lost control. There aren't enough words to describe how incredibly grateful I am for all that you are, ha

I'm just a little black rain cloud

I have this weird habit of referencing or quoting obscure things from the past. For example, the other day there was this giant cloud of doom over campus that looked like it was just going to open up and start pouring any second, so I started saying "Tut tut, it looks like rain!" over and over again. No one understood it until I explained the context in detail. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Zs7DDaNRMM A flashback to childhood every so often is kinda cool.