humans are dynamic beings, constantly changing and adapting to various situations. no one can be the exact same person when they go to sleep at night as they were when they woke up that morning.

but general personality traits should probably stay pretty stable from day to day. so if you're gonna be nice, then be nice. don't be nice for a day or two and then decide to switch it with an asshole card. i can't keep up.

consistency. that's all i ask for, really.


Congratulations on Your 1st Birthday

Hope it was worth the trouble you went through to fake a 1st birthday just to get a $5.99 cake for free. Here's a tip: next time you try to get a promotional free "Baby's First Birthday" cake, don't ask the person taking the order to write CONGRATULATIONS on it. If you're gonna be cheap, at least get the freakin occasion right.


happy belated father's day, bruce

And especially to you, Dad. I am more proud of you now than words can ever express. Lovelovelove from my heart to yours.

for those of you paying attention, my dad did not change his name to bruce. i don't know bruce. i just happened to write on his belated father's day cake. but i do hope bruce enjoyed his father's day as well.


internship, day one

When I walked in the room, they already knew my name. "This is Jenn too! Now there are two Jenn's in the group! And if the other Jen came in, then we would have THREE Jenn's in this room!" The three elementary school-aged boys tell me their names in a tangle of shouts and laughter. One jumps and claps. The two others are sharing a seat; one ends up on the ground and decides he likes it there instead.

They are overly-energized and eager to impress any audience they might have. And you wouldn't know it at first glance, but they all have one important thing in common: each one falls on the high-functioning end of a developmental or autistic disorder.

The two speech & OT therapists work patiently with the boys, paying close attention to and utilizing each one's strengths and weaknesses. They give constructive comments in areas that need work and give them much needed encouragement and praise when they succeed. They work with the boys on group & one-on-one interactions, as well as helping them tune up their speech and movement. The entire one-hour session is, basically, hands-on training in social skills.

Too freakin' cool.

In one exercise, the kids pair off with a buddy. The simple objective: to learn something new about your buddy that you didn't know before by asking him questions. With the help of the therapists, they hold pretty engaging conversations about everything from favorite foods to names of pets. After a few minutes, the group comes back together and each person shares what they learned about their buddy.

One boy, who looked to be about 5 or 6, stood up to share what he learned about his buddy, who happened to be one of the therapists. "We both like dogs," he said as he alternated from looking out the window to looking at the ground. "I like dogs a lot. I had a dog but he was old so he died. Her dog is still a baby. And she likes hot dogs too with mustard and onions but I don't like that when I eat a hot dog because I don't like onions." His hands flap wildly as he speaks, leading me to guess that maybe he's in the group to help manage the effects of Asperger syndrome.

I go to college with a few people who have Asperger's. I've heard what people say about them, about their awkward tendencies and their strange ways of social interaction. I chalk it up to a lack of understanding about a relatively newer and lesser-known diagnosis. There's no reason for their quirky or strange behavior other than that they're wired to respond to social cues a little differently than what we perceive as the "norm." Get beyond that little bump and you can have as engaging and "normal" a conversation with them as you could with anyone else.

Hot dog kid is lucky. All of the boys are. They're getting essential support in mastering skills that will help them succeed in all aspects of their lives, in the present and in the future. What they learn in that social skills & playgroup now will help them ten, fifteen, twenty years down the line. It makes a visible difference. And I can't wait until I someday get to be part of someone's support network.

Yes. This is exactly what I want to be doing with the rest of my life.


words to a friend... 12:55 am wednesday june 3

"i think if you care a lot about a person, it takes a very long time to get rid of the pain. who knows, maybe you can never fully get rid of it. but eventually, you'll convince yourself not to let it take you down. it all has to get better eventually... hopefully sooner rather than later."